Things in my way of my TR/PR Application.

Finally, I have gathered enough information for me to start with this application already.

Really hard to believe the amount of informations I need to provide.

One of the things which I need to provide is Malaysia's police check and Australia's police check.

Hmm.. I wonder if I have any records. haha

So, that means I will have to go back to Malaysia to obtain the police check OR I have the option to go to Canberra to get it too. I haven't really work out the budget needed to go to either destination and to obtain it. From my friend's experience, it is better to go to Canberra as it only take ONE WHOLE DAY to get it instead of going back to Malaysia because you never know how long will the police take there to give you a proper check without a reasonable bribe. =| Obviously, that's how things work in Malaysia. You have money, you pay more for the bribe. And what I dislike most is people tend to think this way; "You're migrating to Australia? You're rich!". In fact, I am not rich.

After months of research, I found out that the total cost needed to finance this application is around AUD$5,000. My savings so far is nowhere near that yet. There's some debts which I need to collect but I doubt I will finish collecting anytime soon. That's what happened when you trust someone, borrowed them a huge sum of money and then they just keep delaying the repayment, betraying your trust. Right now I am being pushed to the point where I don't know when I am gonna crack it. No one will like it when I crack, not even myself. But sometimes, things like this are inevitable when that someone you trust is acting like shit. Giving you excuses one after another. Making up bullshit and make it sounds like it is making perfect sense. Don't you just hate it?

3 years ago, I owe people a huge sum of money (it was a huge sum for my situation then), it just bugged my mind all day and night, especially that time when you lay down on your bed, getting ready to sleep. Yeah, it gave me sleepless nights. So, I worked my ass off, day after day, projects after projects, events after events, to freaking pay off that debt just so I can enjoy my sleep and throw all the worries away. From then on, I vowed to myself never to owe anyone anymore. I don't wana go through that ever again. I don't wana wake up everyday worrying about money. 

3 years later, right now, I AM STILL worrying about money. Not worrying that I don't have enough money but worrying someone else will run away with my money. For the first time in my 22 years of life, I have such a huge amount of personal savings. If someone just borrowed and disappear with it, I don't know what the hell is gonna happen to myself. 

I hate it how you have to work so hard to save so much money and then someone just come and ask u for it, without a single sweat! To make the situation worse, they don't even try to pay you back, even if it's just a little bit. This make me feel like an idiot working my ass of day and night when I owe someone. How can people live life more carefree than I do when they owe me such a huge amount of money!?!?

Right now, I want to make myself another promise. I promise never to borrow money FROM and TO anyone ANYMORE. It is so much easier to be an asshole to everyone rather than someone else being an asshole to you. SO MUCH EASIER!

I wonder when only I can enjoy my life without any worries about money...