Welcome back.

It's been so long since I last came back to this blog. Never even had a look at it. =P

Let's do some updates.

Someone told me this theory before, "Whenever you are thinking of getting or want something, you will keep seeing that thing everywhere you go. For example, if you want to buy a Honda Jazz, Honda Jazz will be the only cars on the road you see." I find it funny at first but now, all I can see are Ray Ban Aviators, Burberry cashmere scarves, and couples hugging each other walking down the streets, seeking warmth from each other to fight the cold of winter. Oh, and not forgetting the amount of smokers I noticed - 12 days and counting!

That pretty much sums up what I really want right now. But sometimes, things just will not go your way, no matter how hard you tried or how much effort you put into it. In the end, you will be the only one who understand how difficult it is to go through all these yourself.

There are so many times I just want to yell my lungs out, smoke as much as I can until my throat cannot take it anymore, or cry until my eyes pop out; but, what's the point? Will I feel better doing that? No. When there are so many problems starting popping out around me, I feel like I really need someone to talk to, to make myself feel better but as I scroll through my phonebook, I realised... I have no "real" friends in Melbourne who I can vent to. Not even ONE real friend who have a shoulder and ear to spare. There's probably one but the problem i'm facing revolves around that person. So, I guess this is just part of the new chapter in my life which I have to suck it up and go through it. Can't believe there's still something new in store for me after being here for more than two years now.

Is there any easier way to do this?